It’s been a while since I posted. Part of that is because I haven’t been dating – in fact I’ve been actively avoiding it. I’ve been focusing on other things instead, including writing up a dissertation.
I’m also currently editing a much longer post, one that I’ve meant to write for a while, but it needs a lot of editing before I will show it to public eyes. Right now it’s over 3000 words and honestly no one needs to be subjected to that, and I need to sift through all the words and thoughts and pare it down to the essence of what I’m trying to say in that post.
In the meantime, I’ve been remembering how I felt this time last year, that I was in a much lonelier place, weirdly. I say weirdly because I’ve spent so much of the past few months alone but not feeling lonely. And it’s been lovely.
But I have had a lot of relationships end around this time of year, and I’ve been spending time reflecting on a few of those recently. So many feelings, including feeling some nostalgia, but also a sense of happiness with where my life is now.
So here is a song I ran across recently that embodies that strange mix of feelings: